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[Music] happy Halloween 2018 I've been actually wanting to try out this costume for a while now for a few years and I've been putting it off but here we are hope you guys like it it'll kick out of it but be careful don't be seduced by this clever little costume because what we have today is a very serious topic we're gonna be talking about the radical implications of oneness and I want to tell you in particular about one very serious and rather scary implication of oneness that you probably haven't thought about before even though you've studied non-duality and you've heard about it and you heard me talking about it but it's one thing to to kind of dabble in on duality it's another thing to really start to comprehend and contemplate all the full ramifications of what non duality means most people have no idea what non duality means or what oneness means oneness can sound like a very fluffy Wu sort of phrase like we can say oh we're all one we're all one it's like we're all hippies and we're all one and it's love for everybody and you probably have heard people talking about about this before and maybe it struck you as just some clever little poetic saying or just some wishful line of thinking but I want you to take it a little bit more seriously than that what if you were to take it literally non-duality what does non-duality really mean it means non-dual as in not - or Advaita not - what is not to mean fundamentally it means that there's no boundary or distinction or separation between you and anything else that you might consider other than you so literally what this means is there's no boundary between me and you you and a tree you and a car you and a house you and Adolf Hitler that's what that means that's a pretty radical thing people don't think this through I want to help you to think through the full ramifications of this because this is very eye-opening and this can really change your entire orientation towards life because the way that most people live life and the way that you're living life even if you have heard about non-duality even if you agree that there is such a thing called enlightenment even if you had a low mystical experience here or there you still fundamentally live from a dualistic orientation of you over here and everything else the rest of the world somewhere out there the bad guys out there the evil ones out there all the demons that you create are somehow out there and separate from you that's how most people live and how they think in fact their entire thinking process is fundamentally permeated by this assumption that there just is this thing of like me over here and others over there the bad guys are out there somewhere and that's because we from our culture just pick up this attitude that there are these separate individual selves like myself over here and yourself over there and that there are therefore multiple subjects within the universe who are looking at the universe and some of these subjects they're the good guys they're the kind people the loving people and some of these guys they're the evil ones the psychopaths the crazy ones the terrorists the the murderers the corrupt dictators and this source of stuff but that's all duality non-duality means that there's only one subject in the whole universe what that literally means is that the thing that is looking through my eyes right now the thing within me that is conscious of this room that I'm standing in is precisely the same thing within you which is conscious of room that you're sitting in what is that thing what is that subject well that's the transcendental I that's the ultimate i am-ness of which we talk about when we talk about spiritual truths and we talk about the the ultimate self the the absolute self that subject it's pure subjectivity it's not a thing per se there's not a thing inside of you that's looking through your eyes and experiencing everything actually what's inside of you is a void it's nothingness so how could it be that the thing inside of me is the same thing as that inside of you because it's nothingness it's void the void that primordial void of consciousness that has always exists that's eternal that's ever-present that existed before the Big Bang and will exist long after the entire universe is destroyed that is the ultimate absolute subject which is experiencing the entire universe in all of its infinite forms of which right now your current lifetime your current incarnation is one see you have to be careful though to distinguish between this Universal absolute i am-ness the self with a capital S and the self with a lowercase s or the ego the ego is who you think you are when I point to you the ego is the self image you have the ego is the ownership you have where you feel that you have over your life so if I ask you whose life is that that's happening right there you'll say well mine of course that's ego that's the lowercase s self so of course your ego is not the same as my ego but the thing that's aware of the ego the thing that transcends the ego the thing that was there before the ego that thing is the same in me as it is and you they're literally identical that literally means that I am you not in a metaphorical sense literally so let me ask you this have you ever wondered why you're you and why you're not me or why you weren't born as some starving hungry kid in Africa or why you weren't born Napoleon or a billionaire or a u.s. president why are you living that life right now if they're wondered this very interesting philosophical question sometimes I get the sense that people might speculate about this question but they do a purely in a philosophical sort of way they don't really take it seriously they never seriously consider that there could be a real answer to this question and the answer is really simple you are you and you are also mean and you are also everybody else well you have to understand what that really means what does it mean for you to be you for you to be you means that you're living that life right there and you're experiencing every single word that I'm saying right now and you're conscious of it and that you had your particular life history you will bore in a particular City to particular parents and went to a particular school and got a particular job and married a particular spouse and all of this that you consider your life that you have memories of that's what you consider you that's the small self so why are you experiencing that and not my life why weren't you born in my city why weren't you at my school why aren't you running actualized not Oregon creating these episodes why aren't you looking through the camera right now the way that I am well you are you understand you are but for you to be me you have to actually become me which means you have to stop being you you get this you get how this works you are literally me and what I'm experiencing right now is you experiencing me now the mistake people here make is they think that well Leo if it was true what you're saying that I am you that means I should be able to look through your eyes right now and have all of your personal experiences as memories no be very careful here if you had access to all of my personal memories and experiences that means you wouldn't be me nor would you be you you would be some third kind of hybrid creature which is a synthesis of your and my individual egoic experiences that would be some sort of third thing you would be that thing then you wouldn't be me to be me means that you're fully me that means when you become me you no longer have memories of having been yourself for example so it's not like you can be in my body and in my mind and still retain your memories of being you and having gone to your school and to your family and all the stuff that you did in your life you're not gonna have access to that what it means to be me is that I don't have access to those things that's what I am and what it means for you to be you is that I can't access you you see this is a virtual partition within consciousness that's what it is so when you understand this what you understand is that literally you are me right now one day in the entire let's say history of the cosmos you will experience what it's like to start actualize org and to shoot hundreds of videos and all the the joy and tribulation and suffering that I go through creating all this content thinking all this stuff up and one day you will be standing here right where I'm standing speaking to this camera saying the exact words that I'm saying right now having exactly my experiences in fact it's happening right now that's what's happening right now the only problem is is that you're probably not conscious of it because you're so glued to being you and your ideas of being me or that it's like you still stay you but then somehow you're also able to access my experiences that's some sort of third thing now you might say leo well could I be that thing then too is there gonna be a situation in the universe in the history of the universe where I'm gonna experience you and both and me as this hybrid thing maybe maybe I don't know maybe I guess it's possible see but you have to understand what this u really entails what your life really entails it's partitioned consciousness partitions itself for the benefit of you right because look if you had the access to the memories of every single human that has ever lived you wouldn't be able to live a productive life you wouldn't actually be able to be you you wouldn't be able to individuate yourself because you would be lost in a sea of of memories of stuff that has happened to people billions of times throughout human history right your your mind would be so inundated you would literally go insane from all of this it would be too much and it wouldn't be conducive to you living your individual life so there's utility in partitioning consciousness because that's how you create a sort of individuality but you have to remember that this individuality that you have been experiencing for the duration of this lifetime it's a pseudo individuality it's not real it's a virtual partition it's not an objective partition it's a subjective partition and there's nothing fundamental about it in the way that many materialists think they think that there this individuated creature within Aladin oh no such thing no such thing one of the most radical implications of non-duality is precisely what i'm saying here and it is that you will experience everything by the time your time is up everything everything try to understand just how profound this statement is that you will experience everything now by you what do I mean - I mean the ego no the ego will die the ego will not experience everything the ego is one experience within everything so of course one experience within everything can't experience everything but you as the capital s self you as that I am you as the Godhead this the subjective light of awareness that is shining through you right now that is being conscious of the words that I'm speaking that you the enlightened self that will experience everything everything without exception it will experience an infinity of experiences and forms in fact it already has I'm speaking here as though we're talking about linear time and you might get the sense that well if I die then there's gonna be another lifetime another life after that it's gonna be this linear sequence I'm gonna take billions of years to experience everything yeah you can think of it that way because we have to as we're talking about this we have to put it into linear time because that's that's how the human mind and human operating system works is we only understand cause and effect through linear time under ordinary conventional states of consciousness but that's not really what's going on really what's going on is it's all being experienced simultaneously as though you took a pencil and you you made a little dot on a big piece of paper a little on a white piece of paper you made a dot and in this dot is contained every single experience that can ever possibly be experienced and it all happened in the blink of an eye at once of course within that little dot is contained a bunch of linear time lines independent linear time lines which seemed to expand and unfold across time so a really good metaphor for understanding this is I think of it this way imagine a film reel that contains every single film that has ever been recorded in Hollywood throughout all of human history imagine we took every film reel and we spliced them together into one long supermassive Ultra comprehensive film reel and not only will this film reel contain every film ever shot but also every film that could ever be shot in the future it contains the possibility space of all film ever such that on this reel is contained everything that you could ever possibly do within film it contains every possible way that Star Wars could have been shot by George Lucas it contains every possible way that any movie you've ever seen could have been shot every single angle it could have been shot and every single actor that could have been in the movie every single different word of dialogue that could have been substituted by some writer every single different plot twist I could have been invented so you see this is an infinite we're talking about an infinite film reel there's an infinite amount of possibilities just for one movie there's an infinite number of ways for example to have shot star wars an infinite number of actors you could have substituted for the ones that we know and an infinite number of dialogue choices and subplots and so forth so that's just Star Wars but now take every possible movie that could ever be invented so now we have this infinite reel so this is very interesting you see now this reel contains everything that could possibly be and that's like reality and then what we're gonna do is we're going to take this reel and we're gonna play it on a projector and what this projector is fundamentally is just light it's shining light through each individual frame of this infinite reel it goes on forever to infinity that's that's how long it is so the light is shining through this particular frame right here and maybe this frame here is one particular frame of one of the star wars episodes and it's shining through and now you get to see that frame and that is like what's happening right now that's what I'm experiencing right now as I'm standing here that's what you're experiencing right there as you're sitting there watching this video is you're experiencing one of those frames and what your life is your entire lifetime up from when you were born till today what that has been is it has been one chunk of this infinite reel that has been playing which is just like one movie but there's like an infinite number of movies see and so you're playing through it and it looks linear it appears as though it's happening one at a time but also what you can do is you can take sort of a higher level perspective a meta perspectives kind of zoom out and what you'll see is that the the infinite reel just exists as one solid entity which contains everything it's like one singularity it is that dot that you made with the pencil on a piece of paper you see in it already is contained all the timelines all the possibilities everything it's all right there and then you realize oh yeah I am that entire film reel I'm gonna play through that thing an infinite number of times over and over and over again I'm gonna I'm gonna go through every single iteration that's possible I'm an experiencing I'm gonna experience everything that could ever possibly be experienced that's what we mean by everything and in this case what is the thing that's doing the experiencing of the film reel it simply is the light it's not there's not actually a projector or a physical mechanical projector which is a separate object from the film reel because again we're saying this everything is non dual right so a duelist would think well there's the projector which is like the self the ultimate self and then there's the film reel it's not quite right because again that would require a boundary or a division between the two so with non duality what we mean is that all divisions and all boundaries collapse such that there's not even a division anymore between the projector and the film reel itself so imagine that the film reel is the projector or another way you can think of it is that pure light is shining through the frame and illuminating the frame and in fact the frame just is the pure light you see and that pure light that's what we mean by the enlightened self or the absolute self or the ultimate i am-ness that thing and notice you know light isn't intangible light is what another word for light is spirit or consciousness or awareness and so that's the case but even as I explained all this do you still realize the full implications of what I'm saying let's make it very explicit I want you to imagine that you will experience what it's like to be a woman gang-raped you will experience what it's like to be tortured in the Spanish Inquisition you will be gassed in a concentration camp and Nazi Germany you will be burned at the stake as a witch you will be accidentally buried alive you will starve to death in a famine you will rot to death from the Black Plague you will be born into the lowest caste of the Indian caste system you will be crucified on a cross you will be mowed down by a machine gun in World War one you will be molested as a child you will die at an airplane crash and you will know what it feels like those last few seconds before the airplane crashes into the ground you will know the terror of what that feels like to know that that's about to happen you will get crushed in a car accident you will be a southern plantation slave forced pick cotton cotton who will be tortured and whipped and beaten you will be a black man lynched by the KKK you will be a mother who bleeds to death giving birth you will be a young fetus who gets aborted you will be a child incinerated by the atomic blast at Hiroshima you will be a young child abandoned by her parents and left to fend for yourself and you will know what it's like to grow up without a mother and a father who loved you you will be a family of civilians bombed by a US drone strike in the middle east killed for no good reason you will be a depressed teenager who shoots himself in the mouth or slits his wrists you will be a child shot in a school massacre you will overdose as a heroin junkie on the streets you will be shot in a firing squad you will be born as the ugliest person in the world and you will know what that feels like and what that does to your self-esteem you will die a virgin you will lose your spouse to some horrible cancer one day after years and years of searching for your perfect spouse you find him or her and you finally get married and everything is going great and the next year they're gonna get this horrible cancer and they're gonna die and you're gonna know what that feels like very intimately you will be crippled you will be disabled you will be disfigured in every possible way that you could you will be born clinically [ __ ] your child will die in a skateboarding accident your child will drown in a pool and you will know what that feels like you will die of AIDS you will be born gay you will be born transgender you will be born a minority you will be born into a ghetto you will be born a refugee you will be born in North Korea you will be a sex slave and you will know what that feels like to have strangers use your body as a sex toy with no power to escape that situation you will be born into a Mormon polygamist cult and you will know what that feels like you will work in an African diamond mind may be worked to death you will work in a sweatshop for one a dollar a day 14 hours a day just to make ends meet you will be knocked up by some [ __ ] who then leaves you with your child left to raise your child all by yourself you'll know what that feels like you will be locked up in an insane asylum for your mental disorder you will get Alzheimer's and dementia you will get a lethal dose of nuclear radiation in Chernobyl you will be beheaded in a guillotine in the French Revolution you will get your life savings swindled by some con artist or in some pyramid scheme you will die all alone and you will know what that feels like you will be born into an abusive family where your father rapes and molest you you will be five 300 pounds overweight and you will know what that feels like you will die in a hurricane you will go bankrupt for medical bills you will be wrongfully accused and incarcerated for tens of years you will go bald you will lose your teeth you will know what it feels like to have a tiny penis you will know what it feels like to have small breasts and what that does to your self-esteem and how other people judge you for it you will be a non unarmed black man shot by the police you will be executed as a political prisoner you will die of thirst lost in the desert you will die of a rattlesnake bite you will freeze to death in a snowstorm on Mount Everest you will be a cat or a dog euthanized at the pound you will be an antelope in the jaws of a crocodile or a lion you will be a cow slaughtered in a factory farm you will be a suckling pig served up on a spit at a barbeque your furry hide will be turned into a designer mink coat you will be fished and butchered for sushi you will be hunted for Sport and your head will be hung as a trophy on some sportsmen mantle you will be mauled by a grizzly bear you will get your leg bitten off by a shark you will experience every breakup that has ever been experienced by any human being every divorce every insult every cheat every lie every act of violence every disease every death of a loved one every legal injustice every betrayal every mental disorder every physical disability every criminal punishment that man has ever endured every abuse of every animal that man has ever inflicted every act of torture horror and pain beyond anything you could possibly imagine or dream up and everything that you hate you will become that's what non-duality means but that's not all it gets even stranger this is only half the story not only will you be every victim you will also be every perpetrator which means you will be Hitler issuing the orders to build the concentration camps that will be you you will be the Roman senators stabbing Julius Caesar you will be the child rapist you will be the henchmen nailing Christ to the cross you will be the German soldier operating the machine gun you will be the pilot responsible for crashing the airplane you will be the Islamic terrorist you will be the racist KKK leader who's leading the lynch mob you will be the man in the gang rape you will be the brutal tyrant suppressing his people you will be the greedy CEO you will be the alcoholic husband beating his wife you will be the Catholic priest molesting dozens of children and you will be the archbishop doing the cover-up you will be the pilot who dropped the atomic bomb on Hiroshima and you will be the US officials who ordered it you will be the set the span Inquisitor operating the torture device you will be the operator of the guillotine and the fresh revolution you will be the gunman in the school massacre you will be the boss running the sweatshop you will be the lawyer defending the corporation as polluting the waters you will be the con artist whose swindle in his mark or building his pyramid scheme you will be the spouse who divorces just to get all the money you will be every perpetrator of evil that has ever existed that's what non-duality really means no Leo this is impossible this is crazy you've lost that you've gone off the deep end you're just wrong there's no way this could be true Leo you're misinterpreting non-duality is not what nine new ality says this is not what the buddhist scriptures tell us this is not what Eckhart Tolle says about non-duality think it through for yourself though what does it really mean to say that reality is non-dual just what do you think oneness means if it doesn't mean this you see it's just that the magnitude of one this hasn't really hit you yet it hasn't sunk in for you one is still just an intellectual exercise some philosophical theory or something like this or even if you've had a glimpse here or there of some version of non-duality it's still the depth of it hasn't fully hit you yet and now you start to realize why the truth the truth of the capital T is so rare and why it isn't possible for this truth to be mainstream see and you also see why there's so much controversy and misunderstanding about what God is because what I'm describing here is I'm describing God God is everything everything everything with no exceptions everything you learned in history everything you saw in the movies everything you've ever experienced and every experience that you've ever heard from other people God is all of that and in infinite more see with no exceptions whatsoever God is that infinite film reel sitting on a shelf and what you're experiencing right this second is one frame of that infinite film reel here we are now you might be wondering Leo but but why am I not experiencing the whole thing if what you're saying is true I should be experiencing the whole thing but then who's gonna experience the individual frames who's gonna experience your life you see for God to be able to experience the entire freakin film reel he has to go through it one frame at a time at some point for God to know what it's like to be you he has to literally live your life which is what he's doing right now I mean not he it you are it this God is not separate from you of course you're it you're living through it right now that's what you're doing so the reason you're you is because someone has to be you who else is gonna take your shoes who else is gonna look through your eyes there's only one subject to look through your eyes there's only one subject to look through my eyes there's only one subject there's only one light only one projector to project through all of these frames imagine telling this to a Jewish Holocaust survivor telling him that he will literally be Hitler could you imagine telling the rape victim that she will literally be her own rapist can you imagine telling an evangelical Christian that he was literally the one who nailed Christ to the cross can you imagine telling a conservative that he will be one of the 9/11 hijackers or an illegal alien for Mexico or a communist can you imagine accepting for yourself that you will literally be that corrupt politician that you despised the most which politician do you spies Hillary Clinton Donald Trump somebody else well what if you're them can you imagine telling a Greenpeace liberal that he will be a corporate tycoon funding the military-industrial complex can you imagine telling a corporate CEO that he will poison his own child with his pursuit of maximum profits and the pollution that creates can you imagine convincing someone for example like Jordan Peterson that he will be Lenin Mao Stalin a social justice warrior a feminist a transgender student how do you think that conversation would go you think you would like that you think you would agree with that can you imagine telling a Sam Harris that he will be a fundamentals fundamentalist evangelical or an Islamic terrorist how do you think that conversation will go he think he's going to accept that you think he's gonna agree with me you think anyone's gonna agree with me can you imagine telling any of these people that this is what God is that this is what goodness is that this is what beauty is that this is what love is that this is what truth is that this is the ultimate truth you think they're gonna object you think they're gonna have some excuses you think they're gonna have some rationalizations for why I'm wrong the ego cannot handle this truth because the ultimate truth is just too much it's way too much it's way too much the magnitude the magnitude of it just is is utterly staggering staggering beyond your wildest imagination of what reality could be when you realize this it's way too radical it's outrageous it's utterly politically incorrect it's terrifying it will terrify you it'll scare the [ __ ] out of you the question is can you handle that can you handle the truth are you open enough for this truth to reveal itself to you most people aren't see most people are way too self-righteous and that self-righteousness is precisely what stands in the way of realizing the truth of non-duality and the ultimate answer to the question of how come existence why existence why is there something rather than nothing the answer is there it is accessible I've accessed it other people have accessed it but it requires an enormous degree of open-mindedness and a willingness to surrender yourself righteousness and a willingness to dissolve all of your boundaries to experience this truth you understand that to experience the entire real all at once requires that you surrender your attachment to the particular frames that you're attached to within that real which means that you need to be able to surrender your life your birth and your sense of death and all of your memories and all of your attachments to who you think you are you have to surrender all of that if you want to access the entire real that's what it means to access the entire real you access everything at once you can't just stay who you were and access the real that wouldn't be accessing the real so what I mean by yourself righteousness standing in the way is of course that all of your hatred all of your judgment and all of your demonization that all of this you will have to recognize as being a lie as being a smokescreen that was erected by your ego that prevents you from realizing this truth so the reason I gave you a list of all those people who I wanted you to imagine to explain this truth to who would never accept it why wouldn't they accept it it's precisely because they're so attached to their hatred their judgment their criticism in their demonization and they've made careers and entire identities and their entire lives have been turned into this process of judging the other and they are therefore fundamentally committed to the dualistic orientation towards life what they're doing really is they're denying their full identity as God or as everything whereas infinity and that's what you've been doing your whole life every single time you've hated judged demonized or criticized anybody really what you've been doing is you've been denying your own self because your true identity is not that thing that you think you were born as it's not the family you grew up with it's not your nation it's not your race it's not your ethnicity it's not whether you're rational or irrational it's not what religion you believe it's not whether you're an atheist or whoever else it's not even whether you're human it is everything literally everything infinity but you see this is so much it's too much it's too much for you what you want is you want something small and comfortable something manageable you want to just be you your memories your little life you're a little cushy position that you've constructed for yourself in your life you see your identity that's what you've spent your entire life developing is your particular identity whether it's a religious identity a political identity a scientific identity or anything else like that see you've been denying your own oneness this whole time that's the challenge of reality that's the ultimate existential challenge is to realize and understand your fullness and to accept it and not to deny it that's the hardest thing in the world to do that is God's entire agenda you might wonder why did God create all this what's the point the point is that it's not that God created a bunch of stuff don't think of it that way think of it and said like this imagine that there was a moment in time and this isn't quite right because of course God is outside of time but let's just go with it as a metaphor that there was a moment in time where God was sort of born somehow he was born let's say and there he was and now most people imagine okay he started just creating stuff and of course he knew he was God and he knew what he was capable of so he just starts creating a bunch of stuff but it's not so simple you see before God can get to that God has to ask himself wait a minute how did I get here why did I come into existence where did I come from and what am I you see there's a moment where God doesn't really know yet what he is because it's like God's not just bored with self-knowledge God God God needs to go through a process to arrive at self-knowledge and this process is what we call life that's what's happening right now right this second that's what's happening every second ever of everybody's life is it's God looking through itself exploring itself experiencing itself in order to realize what it is God doesn't know what it is until it's lived through every possible experience an incarnation of consciousness to realize what it means to be God you see and since God is infinite there's an infinite number of forms it's forever experiencing itself through every possible incarnation it's running through every single film reel it has to do that to realize what it really means to be God to realize infinity the body of God so to speak is literally made up of this present experience that's happening to me right now and this present experience is happening to you right now and every other experience that has ever happened to any living creature all of that makes up the body of God that's what God is it's this infinite singularity but it doesn't really know itself to know itself it has to go through this experience to see the consequences of what it means to be infinite it's one thing to just say oh yeah I'm infinite or just to say oh yeah God is infinite it's another thing to actually go through every possible experience of what it means to be infinite what it means to be infinite is that you're an ant crawling on a piece of wood in the forest or you're a bear [ __ ] in the woods or you're a dragonfly flying through some pond or you're a human being going through a breakup or you're a Nazi killing Jews or you're some corrupt politician scheming away to to steal a bunch of money from the government or something like this right it's it's every possible thing that could ever be experienced that's what infinity means and of course for God there's a really a really tricky issue here which is that infinity is so big and the consequences of our of it are so astounding and marvelous and stupendous and horrifying that God needs to not only be able to go through every iteration to see what it really is it also needs to understand well not accept it needs to accept what it is and that's what this episode is about today it's about helping you to accept what you really are because you see when most people think of God what they think of is they think of rainbows and butterflies and unicorns and pretty things and nice things and love and goodness and all of this they don't think about the selfishness and the evil they hold this as separate from God again creating a duality but of course with non-duality we have to fold that in to this concept of God because God is one is this one thing you can't separate anything from it so the most challenging thing with non-duality is to realize that your everything including all the ugliness and all the stuff that you hate so as God is going through this film real and it's looking through every single imagine like for example if you were sitting there in a movie theater looking through an infinitely long film reel every single movie that could be well you're gonna see some wonderful beautiful movies some romantic comedies and children's movies and fairytales and this and that with happy endings and that's gonna be great you're gonna be happy but then what happens when you see all the horror movies all the slasher films all the snuff films all the violence all the video of all the wars that have ever happened in human history right you're looking through all of this you're looking through every single rape you're looking through as though it was filmed on a camera you're looking through every single act of genocide and terrorism and torture and evil and corruption and greed and all of this you're looking through all of it how do you think you're gonna feel when you're looking at that are you going to be man enough so to speak to accept that as yourself that's the greatest challenge for God is to fully accept itself as what it is and not to deny not to create smoke screens and excuses and rationalizations and all this most people would be way too offended to entertain these ideas that I'm talking about here spiral dynamics stage blue moralists will think that oneness that I'm explaining here is actually devilry because stage blue moralism is all about splitting off and creating a duality between good and evil which is what someone like Jordan Peterson does and which is why he's stuck with that and he can't evolve forward and spiral dynamic stage orange the materialists and the rationalists they think oneness is just some wishful woowoo new-age metaphor and that it can't possibly be real because reality is material and physical and Leo the things you're describing here orderly impossible but get beyond all of that and what I'm talking about here is not just entertaining this as an idea or as philosophy or as a belief I'm actually talking about realizing that you are God realizing that this is your true nature you are everything absolutely everything and that this is the ultimate purpose of spirituality is to realize this awesome truth and to accept it see the problem is that you're way too weak to accept it you have to surrender yourself to accept it it's not like you can just sit back on a couch and understand what God is in some abstract philosophical way you need to put some skin in the game you see this is a hands-on activity you literally are God living through your life right now and so far your entire life has just been this closer little existence and you've been fighting so hard to create this little cloistered nest for yourself what do I mean by this cloistered nest I mean everything you struggle to work for every single day the money there the love the sex the approval the the fame that you want all the comfort comfortable aspects of life you know the nice cushy house the nice car and the good comfortable clothing and the bed and all of this you're constructing this little bubble for yourself to avoid experiencing the fullness of what you are because it's so radical see you only want to cherry-pick the full spectrum of possible experiences to get the best ones the ones that are the pretty the happy the sappy the sugary ones and you want to say oh yeah I am this stuff here but then you want to deny and reject all of this you want to deny and reject all the all the murder and violence and theft and evil that happens and then you want to deny and have nothing to do with that so you create this duality between the two and then you spend all your time from this little nest that you've built for yourself this little position of privilege and luxury you get to sit up here and criticize all the people over here all the people who were born into abusive families all the rapists of the world all the the murderers all the dictators all of them you get to criticize all of them from your little comfortable position because you've managed to delude yourself into thinking that somehow you're separate from them and that you will never be this way and that you could never be this way and then you will say things to yourself like Oh leo I could never be a rapist I could never be a murderer I could never be a dictator I would never do that I'm not that kind of person huh yeah in this incarnation maybe you're not maybe you're not in this incarnation because you were born to good parents in a good country in a good environment you went to good schools and you had money and you had all of this and you had a good mental health you weren't born disabled you weren't born crippled you didn't go through all the suffering that all these other people had to go through that made their life so miserable that now they spread misery all across the world which you judge and hate but one day you'll know what that feels like you'll know exactly what it feels like to be one of those people that are on this end of the spectrum the selfish evils end of the spectrum you'll know what it's like to be addicted you know what it's like to be caught in a cycle of poverty or criminality or violence or anything else like this you see God's mission so to speak God's ultimate purpose if God is trying to understand what it is is to run through every possible experience the full spectrum without judgment no matter how horrifying it might may seem and you might say well leo but but why would God want to torture and suffer this way no no no you don't understand if you think that way you're thinking from the position of the ego God doesn't judge God wants to run through every possible experience in the same way that when you're sitting in a movie theater and you're looking at a film you enjoy some good violence you enjoy some good rape on the movie screen you enjoy some child abuse on the movie screen you enjoy some horror movie where there's some [ __ ] monster chasing someone some person down and mauling them and eating them piece by piece you enjoy watching cannibal movies horror movies are one of the most popular forms of movie you enjoy them you go to all the time but of course that's because you've got this safe buffer this distance that's Green between fiction and reality you've got that duality but you see when you're actually inside the movie or now and you've got an ego and you want to cling to some particular identity this little comfortable identity that you've constructed for yourself as a good moral person that's above all the others well all the sudden that fantasy of yours now comes into contact with reality and now that's a problem you can no longer maintain that duality see so so God is trying to experience everything because it needs to experience everything to realize its full oneness if it says no I don't want to experience torture and rape and and all that bad stuff then that means it doesn't get to understand what it really is it only sees half of itself it denies the other half and this leads to all sorts of pathologies and this now brings us to the ultimate purpose of life and this brings us to the the ultimate origin of love compassion and goodness now you might think well Leo what does this possibly have to do with love and compassion and goodness it seems like you're describing hell to me there's no love here if if God was truly loving he would eliminate all this evil stuff so we don't have to suffer but again you're speaking from a position of duality you're speaking as if you're not God which you are you're speaking as though you're separate from the creation God is not separate from its creation it is the creation so how does love play into all of this to truly learn to love you must learn to love unconditionally you must learn to accept everything you must learn to love yourself in your entirety it's very easy to love this stuff on this end of the spectrum the good easy fluffy stuff the sugary stuff it's very easy to love that what's really difficult to love is the full truth this is not the full truth the full truth is this entire spectrum that's your job is to learn how to love that if you can love this you've learned how to love yourself and you have in a sense completed the entire objective of God how can you have compassion when you haven't really suffered when you haven't experienced torture and rape and murder and genocide and theft and corruption and all how can you possibly love how can you have compassion for anybody when all you do is live in your little oyster comfortable existence as best you have constructed for yourself that you defend every single day for fear of what it would mean if that gets destroyed and now you your experience spills over into at this end of the spectrum how can you have compassion for for these people over here when you think that you're separate from them and that all of this stuff here is wrong and bad you can't compassion and love comes from exposure to the most brutal experiences the most difficult experiences this is what makes life so challenging and so worthwhile this is the ingenious nasai knife like I said in my what is love episode I called life a love simulator and maybe you didn't quite appreciate what that meant well let's explain it here again why do we call life I love simulator because your job is to realize what you are as God and to accept and love yourself unconditionally in your full entirety and that is the most difficult thing for you to do as an ego in fact what it requires is the ultimate sacrifice it is impossible to accomplish this mission without completely surrendering yourself which means death so you see the purpose of life is to go full circle from life to death and it's only after you face your own death completely and you have nothing anymore that you cling to as an identity and there is no more separate self that at that point you have become in literally infinite and you love everything now because there's nothing that you need to protect within yourself you don't need to protect your body your mind your ideas your religion your politics nothing and you hate nothing and you judge nothing because you understand that all of it is you and you understand the the goodness of it all the absolute goodness of it all absolute goodness includes the full spectrum not just the positive side but also the quote-unquote negative side includes it all you've integrated it all you'll become such a large being that you have literally transcended your humanity into godhood Buddhahood at that point you have realized the purpose of life you've embraced everything you're conscious of yourself fully tada that's what you're here for that's what you were born for you might think you were here to make money and to have sex and to play video games and to do all this stuff no no no all of that is just stuff within the love simulator your real job here if you if you want to be excellent at life your real job is to to complete the love simulator you know you don't need to be in a simulator if you're an ace pilot you put amateur pilots in the simulator and you make them simulate all sorts of difficult scenarios so that they get better and better and better and eventually they become an ace pilot at which point they leave the simulator they don't need the simulator anymore so that's your situation so the reason you're struggling in life the reason is so difficult is because you don't know how to love and the reason you don't know how to love is because you're selfish and the reason is you're selfish is just because that's what you need it to be to survive to get to this point and now you just are to let go of more and more of your selfishness and embody more and more love unconditionally until you're dead and you love even that and then you go beyond that and at that point you become so conscious that you don't even need reality anymore you don't need the simulator anymore you could die and not exist and you're perfectly happy with that that's fine by you because you've already seen absolutely everything there is to see you've completed life you've finished the movie you've finished the game the entire universe is infinitely reincarnating it's playing through all of these experiences as one entity in order to get to know itself to know itself it must be itself again the duality between knowledge and being must also collapse when we're talking about knowing duality as a materialist you might wonder believe how is this possible how is any of this physically possible because like I've said before the universe is not a mechanical physical object is a giant mind it's an infinite mind and it can dream up and hallucinate whatever it wants and so what we're exploring here is not physicality we're exploring infinite hallucination and there's only one subject one giant mind one subject but an infinite amount of dreams and hallucinations within it subdividing itself to infinity forever and ever and ever and you are that entire thing and also right now you are identified with being one little subdivision of that giant thing of course don't expect to remember all of the various incarnations interations that you went through because what it means to be you is that you have your memories that's what it means to be separated and individualized a sub partition see and when your brain gets damaged and your body dies then the memory basically gets wiped clean if you doubt that something like this is possible there's a class of psychedelics that you can take which will actually forget make you forget that you took a psychedelic these are not ordinary psychedelics this is not like LSD or mushrooms or DMT or 5mb oh this is something a little bit more sinister and scary this is truly the stuff of nightmares the stuff of insane asylums you take one of these psychedelics like salvia or datura for example and when this thing kicks in you have no memory that you took this psychedelic you have no memory of who you were as a human being before that all of that is wiped away you are immersed in a totally new reality that feels completely lifelike and it's just pure hallucination that means you can for example have a conversation with your parents or your spouse on this psychedelic and you're having this conversation for 30 minutes and you're you're debating with them something important you're talking and talking talking then 30 minutes later you realize that was just a hallucination it never even happened and it felt completely real you might open your window look through your window on the grassy lawn and you might see a helicopter landing on the grassy lawn and you'll hear the sound you'll feel the wind from it all kicking you in the face and maybe you'll see you'll see some police running out of the helicopter running towards you and then you realize when they get to you none of that ever happened it was just a hallucination and while you're hallucinating that you won't even know that you're hallucinating it will just feel completely real and the reason that's possible is precisely because there is no difference between reality and hallucination what you're experiencing right now is a persistent hallucination and one day will end and that will be that in your entire life will be gone in the blink of an eye as though it was just a movie I don't by the way recommend that you try these psychedelics they can be quite dangerous both physically and psychologically but you know for those of you who are skeptics in the audience you need to be aware that this stuff exists this is I'm not making this [ __ ] up this is factual you know if you want you go try one of these and you'll see what we're talking about here you'll understand this and so that's what consciousness does you see consciousness gets lost inside of itself God gets so sucked into the illusion the illusion becomes indistinguishable from reality because there really is no distinction that God gets so sucked into it that it ends up being where you are right now sitting there right now feeling like you're inside of your little bubble you're living your life being you and that that's what's real right so you're you're completely hypnotized by that illusion by that elucidation you don't even know how to break out of it right just like with a good juicy movie you're totally absorbed in the movie to the point where when something happens on screen even though it's fake your heart starts pounding if you're watching a horror movie there's like a jump scare or something and you're freaked out and it feels very real and you get lost in it for a few hours you see well this is what God is doing on steroids with all of reality God is getting lost in itself so there's a sort of a two-way street you can either get lost and absorb deeper and deeper into reality which is what something like movies do porn does video games do virtual reality does marriage and children in a career all of this is you can absorbed more and more and more into this fantasy into this hallucination and confusing it with reality and there's the opposite direction you can go back up the opposite direction which is raising your consciousness and getting Dee absorbed waking up in other words and this is where spirituality comes in it's a process of stopping playing within the hallucination and actually trying to climb out of the hallucination and God will do both God will get fully lost in the hallucination and suffer deeply and enormous Lee you know there are people in the world right now who are suffering through herbal addictions terrible depression people who will shoot themselves tomorrow people who will go commit violence people who will become terrorists people who will get lost in business for 40 years people who would devote their entire lives to all sorts of causes and purposes that are ridiculous and harmful and pathological and all that really is it's just people getting so absorbed in the hallucination and some of those people are so far gone that there's no way that they can wake up without death physical death that's the only thing that will wake them up then there are others like you perhaps who have already started the waking up process I do some meditation some yoga and those sorts of stuff but you still have a long ways to go but lest you get depressed remember though that this is still only half the story remember you as God will also experience all the positivity all the joy all the pleasure and all the beauty of life you will experience every first kiss every hot man and hot woman every intimate moment every orgasm every delicious meal every smile on a child's face every birthday cake that was ever eaten every Xmas gift that was ever given every amusement park every sunset and sunrise every act of kindness acting every act of courage every act of love every sentimental moment every victory and triumph every success every stroke of good luck every jackpot in Vegas every joke every laugh every masterpiece of art every vacation every honeymoon every beautiful person every mystical experience every ecstatic vision the birth of every cute baby boy and baby girl that was ever born you will experience the highs of every single drug that mankind will ever invent from heroin to cocaine to meth to opium and anything else in the future you will experience the peak of five amiyo DMT joy and pleasure and love beyond anything that you could possibly imagine all of that you will experience because that too is you that too is everything one of the most difficult things to explain to a child is that life is both immensely brutal and immensely beautiful both at the same time try to imagine explaining this to a newborn child who has so little experience with life try to imagine explaining all the horrors of life all the evils and also all the joys and all the beauty of it how do you explain that to a conscious being you can't it's too much it's unbelievable it's unimaginable it's impossible the only way it can be known is by living through it which is precisely why that child was born is to live through it and to discover this brutality and this beauty through direct experience not as a story that was told to you but through direct experience by suffering through it by working through it by going through all the trials and tribulations of life think of how much emotional maturity is required to handle everything that I've been talking about above think of how much you have to grow and develop yourself just to be able to entertain these ideas let alone to actually embody them and to open yourself up to the full spectrum of what you are think of how much bigger of a man or a woman you'd have to be to be able to live this way think of how difficult it is if it sounds outrageous and ridiculous it's precisely because it sounds so difficult and so impossible and so beyond how your friends and family live life and that's precisely the case because mankind is in the dark ages and our culture doesn't talk about this because this requires enormous evolution enormous development and enormous maturity maybe in a few thousand years this will be talked about in mainstream culture because you would have to have evolved our way to that point you know it's taken us thousands of years just to evolve to the point where I can shoot a video about this topic and not get burned at the stake you know a couple hundred years ago would not have been possible even in certain countries today Saudi Arabia for example you can't release a video like this in Saudi Arabia see so it's not an accident that this stuff isn't talked about on your mainstream news or on your Facebook feed or by your friends or your family don't expect confirmation from your culture don't even expect some spiritual guru to explain all of this in all the detail because this is so much it's way too much knowing light masters gonna tell you this because it's just gonna freak you out it's just gonna drive your ego nuts this is something you have to face all by yourself you have to realize this no one can tell you this this is not something you can turn into a belief you need to rather than building this cushy nest that you're building for yourself you need to open yourself up more to the full spectrum of experiences of life and that's that's really difficult to do it's so much more attempting to construct this little nest of yours by chasing money and sex and fame and all of this then you can construct this nest but then you close yourself off from from true love and true compassion the only way you develop true compassion is by taking on the suffering of the world as your own that is one of the core pillars of spirituality you don't do it because you're a masochist you do it because you want the truth you want to experience the fullness the infinity of what you are and also because this strategy of creating a cushy life for yourself this even if you're good at it for a while it never holds up forever even the most successful people will still experience the brutality of life in one fashion or another in fact this is a common reason why many successful people musicians and artists and celebrities end up committing suicide or getting addicted to various kinds of substances or spiraling out of control in their life he's because they're they're building this cushy lifestyle for themselves but then the brutality still comes through you can't hide from the truth forever eventually you're gonna have to face the death of your loved ones face the death of your spouse face the death of your children face the various diseases and the inequality in the world and horror and car accidents and plane crashes and political fascism and and violence and evil everywhere like you're gonna have to face this you can't isolate yourself from this this is a part of reality a part of who you are you can't just sit on some lofty perch that you've built for yourself and then sit and cast judgment on all this stuff as being bad and evil that's gonna come back to bite you because one day you'll have to realize that actually you are too a part of that and that's that requires a lot of emotional maturity to accept that and to still be able to love yourself no matter how rich you get how famous you get you're gonna have to deal with old age with your looks deteriorating you're gonna have to deal with money problems you're gonna have to even if even if you're super successful at all this you're still gonna have to spend every single waking day of your life worrying about maintaining your success maintaining your money maintaining your youthful appearance in your looks and through all of that you will be suffering and you will be scared and so what spirituality is about is about facing your deepest fears your fears of of death facing that head-on and surrendering it into it rather than running away from it and being able to love yourself in the whole world unconditionally and from that you get true happiness in joy and that's why there is no magic appeal for happiness and there is no way to buy it and there is no way to hoard it or to acquire it or to sell it because happiness is just acceptance of your entire ultimate true nature and the surrendering of all you're lying and your your fear and your smokescreens and all of your [ __ ] surrendering all of that surrendering your ego and nobody can do that for you this is God's work you must do this yourself if you don't do this nobody else will do it for you because what you're doing there is you're actually abdicating you're literally abdicating your work is God and if you turn any of this into a belief again you're abdicating your work is God this needs to be experienced by you at a cellular level not an intellectual philosophical level now if you're worried or fearful about any of this that I said watch out because what is that that's the ego that part in you which is afraid of any of the things I listed up above that's precisely the part of you that needs spiritual purification that's the part of you that needs to be surrendered because you see you've created an identity out of a very particular and limited set of things like you think you're tall you think you're beautiful you think you're ugly you think you're attractive or not attractive you think you're successful or not successful you think you're intelligent or not intelligent all of these things you identified with you think you're a man a woman black or white or all of that whatever religion you think you're part of a Jew a Muslim a Christian thought about all of that right you've created identity out of that skeptic a scientific person that's a very narrow identity and what's happening is I'm telling you all this nasty stuff as it might seem yeah it seems nasty from your limited identity because it goes against your identity because what we're trying to do is we're trying to scramble that identity so that you spill out into the world so yeah that's your work that's the hardest thing to do in this work is to surrender more and more of that and to accept more and more of everything selflessly that's why this work is so difficult that's why almost nobody wants to do it that's why everybody makes all sorts of excuses for it that's why people spend so much time mentally masturbating about this work and not actually doing the work is to protect their identity from crumbling because that's what death literally is it's the crumbling of your identity that is death so yeah don't be surprised this scares the [ __ ] out of you but also remember that you can tap into your heart you can tap into the highest wisdom and and intuitions within you and you can use that to power through your fear to power through your egotism this will be a battle your ego is not going to go easily into the night it's gonna struggle all the way and you're gonna have to tap into the highest most godly parts of yourself your deepest love and compassion and you have to apply that to yourself you have to you have to work with yourself every single day for many many years to overcome and to sooth your ego and to negotiate with it until eventually get to the point where you are man enough or woman enough to surrender to it to surrender to infinity to surrender your ego and not need it more do not feel like you need it to defend yourself because now you become so open that there is no more need you don't even care if you die anymore you have no more need for any kind of defenses no more need for lying noble normal need for [ __ ] no more need to protect your possessions or anything else because that's how deep your connection to reality becomes you transcend the human and you now start to identify with the cosmos as a whole with the entire universe you know the entire universe doesn't need possessions doesn't need money doesn't need sex now of course this doesn't mean that you'll never pursue these things or ever have these things you can still have a house you can still have clothing in a car and all this but you're you're just not attached to it is the point so I'm not telling you all of this that you sort of fantasize and worry I'm telling you this so that you start to appreciate just how difficult the truth is the truth is an acquired taste and it's a difficult challenging thing the whole purpose of why you were born was to work and work and work and work to accept the truth and you were given many years you know as a human being you have many years you have like 80 years to live if you live prudently because that's how long you need to fully surrender to the truth it can take a lot of years and you've probably already wasted a third of your life running away from the truth so hmm be glad that you're human you have many years left to live I'm also telling you this to Humble you because notice people who resist what I'm saying here fundamentally what that is is that's arrogance that's their arrogance I'm also telling you this for when you're tripping on psychedelics contemplate the things that I've said here when you're tripping on psychedelics maybe you'll get a direct insight into the things I'm saying here the action steps from this episode is whether you do psychedelics or not anyways contemplate this contemplate what I've said here take it seriously let it humble you let it scare you a little bit that's good but don't get too caught up in your fear because ultimately what you got to do next as an action step is you got to surrender to it rather than resisting it and coming up with excuses and trying to argue with me surrender to it continue tripping continue meditating continue self inquire and continue doing your yoga that's gonna be moving you towards this realization and then one day hopefully it'll hit you everything I'm saying here will hit you it'll all come together and that will be one of the most epic days of your life when you realize this for yourself and you're not just hearing in his words from me all right I hope that wasn't too scary for you after all this is a Halloween but I'm done here go ahead and click that like button for me please come check out actualize that org dance my website you'll find my blog you'll find the forum you'll find the life purpose course you'll find the book list and the final thing that I'll say is that this thing that we call non duality be careful under estimating it it's much more serious than you ever thought and it's different than what you thought it was yes you do need to read the books and learn about non duality you need to learn about the theory that all that's important but then no matter how much of the theory you learn you have to always remember that the actuality of it is nothing like what you imagined nothing like what you got from the books that's what makes it so difficult there are many radical implications to non duality which are quite horrifying and scary from the perspective of the ego so keep that in mind and in the future I will be talking more about various ramifications of non-duality is by no means the only this is actually just one ramification there are others and they can be quite jarring when you learn about them especially when you're not prepared so at least now having watched this maybe when you do have this insight for yourself at least I mean it'll still shock you still shock you nothing can really prepare you for the shock but at least you'll be like well at least I'm not going insane cuz you know at least Leo talked about this and so I guess it's just part of the path I guess I just got to work with it got to learn to accept it and and to stick around for four more as we'll talk about more ramifications and how to deal with it you know a big mmm challenge of this whole work is just keeping your own spirits high as you're doing this because it can be difficult right you you can be facing depression and sadness and and all of this you can get nihilistic like all of this will happen to you on this spiritual journey and the whole thing is you got to keep chipping away at it and not quit all too often I hear people who meditate or do some yoga and they finally they start to get some spiritual mystical experiences and they start to finally get their results but then they're scared by those results and they say oh that was so scary and my heart jumped and all of this and oh my god something weird happened to me and and now I stopped meditating or I stopped doing yoga or I stopped doing psychedelics well I'm trying to prepare you for that so that you don't stop so that you keep going now of course you do want to be careful you don't wanna push yourself so much that you get to some sort of breaking point where you know it's physically dangerous for you or you feel like you're losing your mind completely but you know sometimes it does feel like you're losing your mind sometimes it does kind of feel dangerous because spirituality is serious business it's done by serious people it's done by hardcore people this is not airy-fairy fluffy stuff that you see on Oprah this is serious [ __ ] your very life is on the line here but then again the rewards are also very serious so if you want serious rewards for this work if you want a a serious transformation in your attitude towards reality you want something different than what the ordinary person has well you got to expect it that's going to come through some serious work and through some serious trials and tribulations and so I hope that one of the things that I can offer you with with my content is some sort of like emotional support keep you motivated and just keep you keep your expectations in line rights because when your expectations get out of line you expect something sugary and you get something a little bit bittersweet then you might be tempted to quit so stick around and I'll see you the next one you